Last Impressions Last
Every morning before I left my apartment, I read this following paragraph:
“I am not a teacher. I have never wanted to be one, nay, I have always not wanted to be one. I’m a student. I’m a writer. I’m 21.”
I wrote it over a year and a half ago, so of course, it is a little bit dated. That was the point though. It’s true that when I was a child, I had no idea what I wanted to be when I grew up. Of course, I toyed with the idea of being a professional basketball player and buying my parents a house shaped like a basketball. Didn’t we all? I also had a small phase where I thought I would like to be a photographer, until I realised that most of the time, professional photographers are taking photos of people’s pets and children. Or, you have to go to a malaria-rich country and sit in a tree for weeks on end waiting for a particular type of bird to have sex or to lay eggs for a National Geographic special. Both sound awful to me.
Whenever someone would ask me what I wanted to be, I would look him or her or it in the eye and say “Not a teacher”.
Then I became a teacher. This is an important lesson in testing fate. To be fair, I wasn’t a real teacher in Japan, but it was important to not forget what I really wanted to do.
This is what I said in my farewell speech at my school. I think it rubbed some teachers the wrong way, as it implies that I never took my job seriously. I felt that I was never really going to help the students improve their English with the way the education system is. I wasn’t supposed to come to English classes close to exams because “The students are studying for the test”. Also, I puke in my own shoes at the idea of “internationalising”, in fact, that is the bulk of the book that I’ve been writing. So maybe I did not take my job seriously.
This is not the same as ‘not caring’. After 2 years of seeing the same kids every week, it’d be impossible not to. I just wanted the kids to have some variety in their lives. You see the specialisation occurring early. Kids having to choose only one club for their entire junior high school lives, until the last 6 months when they have to quit in order to allow time to do practice exams for entry into high school. So I didn’t teach. Teaching is making sure that all the kids do the work. This is hard.
I only wanted the kids to have some fun, and if they learnt something, that’s great. I tried to be interesting beyond my appearance and my stupid party tricks and badly played instruments. Maybe they don’t get it yet, but maybe one day they’ll have a fleeting thought about their old ALT. Does he still live in Holland? Does he still do stupid party tricks and play music? Does he still study Japanese? Wait, wasn’t that the girl ALT, or was that the other ALT?
Naturally, I’m trying to justify two years of my life, of keeping my real dreams on hold for the shallow goal of simply “being in Japan”. But as of last week, I am no longer a teacher. This is exciting.
Also, as of next week, I will be homeless. Also exciting.
As a farewell than-you to my students, I made a special present. See, every single morning and lunchtime at my main school, the PA announcements were begun by the Madonna Song "Holiday". Personally, I hate Madonna. I hate her music, and her person. However, this song brings up many good memories from the last 2 years. Most of those good memories involve eating lunch, which is awesome. Also, every student at three different schools wrote me a letter which were presented to me at the closing ceremonies. Many of them drew a picture of me too. So, I combined the two things, gave it my own personal touch (not a very good one), and here it is:
Sorry that it is poorly made, but that's my personal touch that I mentioned before. No-one does it badly as well as I do.
Anyhow, if that was all a little bit too serious, here is a classic anecdote from Wednesday night.
Trees.
I believe that trees are good for two things: hugging and climbing.
Last night I was coming home from the main bar in our small town. I had been drinking for seven hours. It is the Japanese way. The last month has seen drinking parties on most days, and the other days are training.
The point is, I may have been slightly under the influence. Well, the main street has several large trees. My friend Tim, casually walks up to one, and kicks the stump with the sole of his shoe. Suddenly, the tree erupts with hundreds disturbed sparrows flying away in all directions, in a Pandora’s Box effect. It was pretty awesome. I was so impressed that I too wanted to try.
I spot the next tree up ahead, larger than the one before. I take off my right sandal and launch it straight at the centre of the tree. The sandal disappeared into the foliage. It was like an explosion of sparrows. It was like hell opening up and harpies coming out to plague the earth. Sweet!
However, my sandal never came out of the tree. It was still somewhere up there. Luckily, of the two things that trees are good for, climbing is one of them. After some “accidental organic pruning”, I managed to get up into the tree. However, I couldn’t see the sandal. I systematically start to shake the branches, going from limb to limb. Then I notice that Tim is talking to someone in Japanese. I can’t see them because of the dense leaves. I listen in. It is the usual boring banal banter that Japanese people do to foreigners:
“What are you?”
Tim also is sick of this line of questioning and was answering with cheeky answers. The Japanese guy is audibly getting tired of not knowing what he is talking to, so he cuts to the chase with a common, more direct way of asking a white person what species of person they are:
“American?”
“Shitsurei Yo!” I shout from within the tree. (this means literally "You are being rude". So, in effect, the tree was telling him off.)It annoys me deeply when people just presume you as a nationality. I give up on trying to find my sandal- it was very cheap anyway, and come down.
The Japanese guy is pretty young, serious, small and unusually calm. He looks at my Orange soccer shirt.
“Oh, you’re from Poland?”
He starts going on about how I was causing a great disturbance. He assures me that Japanese people are morally superior and wouldn’t climb trees. He says he has no choice but to call the police. We didn’t want to call his bluff, so we just went home, as we were doing before my sandal was eaten up by the evil sparrow tree.
This story brings up many interesting points. Is it illegal to climb trees in Japan? By now, I have climbed most of the trees (and some of the buildings) in the main street of our town. Maybe it is. I seem to be ignorant of many laws. I went to the supermarket last week, and a staff approaches me with his fingers in an X sign. Either he is a big fan of the rapper X’ibit, or I am doing something wrong.
“I’m sorry, but you aren’t allowed in shops if you don’t have a shirt on.”
Really? That is a law? I did not know this. But surely, this supermarket, right alongside the beach would make exceptions? Right? I guess not. There is much I need to learn about laws. But for now, I will at least stick to just hugging trees. I don’t want to make any more disturbances.
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